Why is this happening?

I have been feeling really low for a while now. I have no one in my family to talk to anymore. My granddad was the only one and he is not here. I feel lonely and upset most of the time. I am finding school hard. I just don't know what to do anymore. I wish my granddad was still here so I could let out my feelings but he is never coming back. I could see he was in a lot of pain and I keep on thinking he killed himself. I just don't understand why this is happening now.

Hannah - 29 / 11 / 2008